I don't really get easily disappointed. As much as I possible I try not to too expect too much from people. A result of being burned for so many times.
Recently I loaned someone a bit of a big amount to help her with her finances, with a promise the money will be returned to me in a week time since I also have my own payables to attend to. Obviously, that didn't happen (hence I am venting out).
I wouldn't mind being paid late. In fact, she won't be the first to do so. Nakakairita lang is (1) Hindi tumupad sa payment date, so pati finances ko apektado; (2) Blocked & unfriended ako sa FB for reason/s I don't know; (3) I treated her as a friend, which apparently I should have not.
I am actually more pissed at myself for trusting someone I don't really know (personally).
Now, the only thing that I can do is to wait for her to pay me back. Sad fact is that pati friendship namin ng kapatid nya nalamatan just because she is so selfish and immature to deal with her own problem.
Anyways, my money is with her. Nothing else could be done from my side.
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Hubby and I had a fight about some girl last month.
I know and I believe him that he didn't mean anything sa pakikipagusap sa girl. It was the girl who was (or is, I don't know) so open about everything to him.
I've got my own baggage to deal with. Truth be told, I don't have the right to accuse him of unfaithfulness. I've got my own share of stories as well. But when I saw that girl "leg-selfie" I was like...whoa, wait a minute? Babae rin ako alam ko when and when lumalandi ang kabaro ko. I wouldn't go into details what exactly happened after I saw those messages but I did confront hubby about it. There was a cold war for few days. I know he tried to reach out but I kept my distance. It is not that I am mad. I am actually hurt.
I don't get mad. I get distant.
To cut the long story drama short, we talked about it, we opened up, spent one whole night talking about the situation casually (believe it or not) and resolved it finally. I am glad we had that one night of talking about everything. I still kept some to myself in order not to complicate things more. Ang importante, OK na kami. We (especially on my part, I guess) try our very best to be on a friendly situation. As much as possible, walang away. I learn when to fight my battles with him. We still argue but I know when to stop and just be quiet. For almost 2 years now, we've grown so far apart that (I think) we no longer treat each other fairly. Palaging galit parehong sides.
We are falling out of love but I am glad that we were able to save ourselves and our marriage.
Recently, he'd been mentioning that he wants to buy a used car para may kapalitan yun isa naming car, which I totally disagree because (1) if hindi ididscard yung old car, it would be double maintenance; (2) I would rather have the cash kept in the bank since di naman URGENT yung pagbili ng bagong car.
Knowing him, pag naisip nya gagawin nya talaga. So, he bought a used car. He just casually announced during lunch that he would go out to meet the seller. I kept quiet. I don't wanna argue. He sent me a message afterwards telling me how much it would cost. I didn't reply. He came home and without me realising left again to get and pay for the car. Later on, I found out he bought the (damn) car. Called him and talked to him and he knew I am upset. He sent me a lengthy message explaining his side and telling me it is becoming harder for him to understand me because I get mad "easily" over minor things.
OK maybe it is my fault for not responding to him when he told me the value of the car. Maybe I should have been clearer why I disagree. But I am not upset over trivial things. I get upset when it involves our family and money. Mind you, I don't count his money. I am just trying to convince him to put more in our savings since the gremlins are growing up so fast and everything is
Anyways, car has been paid. Nothing else could be done from my side.
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